Thank you, Miss Fear

storyteller in India

FEAR is the answer you were waiting for.

To the ones who asked me W H Y I left my very good and well-paid job in London, to the dozens of emails I receive weekly asking how, and to the many messages and comments seeking advice on how to follow your desire to travel the world.

Yes, in November 2014 Miss Fear paid me a visit and pushed me out of my comfort zone and “easy” life in the UK.

I had always been a golden child, pushed by competition and a hunger for achievement. I had to win. Always. Very often people looking at my life would tell me “You’ve nailed it”. At the age of 26, I had nailed it. Totally. And more so by 28, 29. Achieving and smashing goals was my favourite sport in my twenties. I was so focused on it that I completely forgot to stop and think if I was playing a game I was interested in, or not.

The truth is that at 30 I no longer wanted to play that game I was so good at.

And then fear came to visit me. 

Fear to miss out, fear I would never be truly happy despite all my professional success and accomplishments on the corporate ladder, fear I would postpone my own dream to travel to prioritise the common goal of a shining CV and spotless career.
The fear I would never see the world with my own eyes, photograph it or writing about it.
Fear my travel around Australia, New Zealand, Fiji and Samoa would stay in the dream drawer forever.
Fear that I might die before I could see all the things I wanted to see, do, experience or be.
The fear I would never touch the Taj Mahal, speak a few words of Hindi and fear I couldn’t ever surf in Australia, fear I would never ride a camel. The fear I couldn’t see a kangaroo or hug a koala or watch the stars in the middle of the desert.
The fear I would never become a digital nomad or discover the secrets of Myanmar.
The fear I would miss my one chance to be happy. This might sound all a bit dramatic, because it is, in fact. When somebody close to you dies, that fear you have dominated, forgotten or avoided for so long, comes out of nowhere and starts eating you alive. This is what happened in 2015 and this is what got me on the road a few months later.

– Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. 
James Neil Hollingsworth.

Get out
Eat the world
Love unconditionally
Learn a new language
Dance with strangers
Close your map
Get lost
Breath
Inspire and be inspired
Switch your phone off
Laugh
Cry
Explore
Be alive

F E E L 

Fear is not the problem. 
What you do with it is. 

 

  • Hi Sabina,

    You only started within a year? Did you save for your travels? Do you use sponsors?

    My mission is also to be inspired and to inspire, but I would like to do it with my husband and friends.

    Would you be able to enlighten me how to make a mid-career break and go for it? Blogging, photographing, video, etc.

    P.S. If you’re ever in Orlando, Florida, let me know!

    Thuyvi Gates

    On Tue, Jan 19, 2016 at 4:45 PM, The Storyteller wrote:

    > Sabrina Andrea Sachs posted: “To the ones who asked me why I left my very > good and well-paid job in London, to the dozens emails I receive weekly > asking how, and to the many messages and comments seeking advice on how to > follow your desire to travel the world. Well, here is the” >

    • Hi Thuyvi,

      Thank you for you comment and enquire!
      Please subscribe to my blog, one of the next posts is exactly about this mystery: how do I afford to travel. So, let’s discuss and share ideas then! 🙂

  • Thanks a lot for this post! Fear has definitely done great for you and is amazing when it leads you to come out of your comfort zone. Sometimes fear just pushes people back to that comfort zone, but it was good to read how a real dark feeling like fear can bring up amazing things.

    • Thank you so much Brenda !

      Miss Fear also forced me to stay in the comfort of a corporate career I enjoyed but no longer loved for 8 years. Then, I had a massive wake up call and I finally faced her and decided to hold her hand on this journey called Life. We are best friends now! 😉

  • fear can be a terrible hinder, or a major push in the right direction. looks like you’ve taken it for the best — excited to have found your journey + look forward to following along! kudos for following your heart <3

    xo christina http://www.currentlyexploring.com

    • Thank you so much, Christina! Yes, fear can be the worst enemy or a great friend. Everything depends on our attitude and how we see life, but also how much we want to go beyond our comfort zones. I’ve realised that there are some pretty happy people who just want to have a “normal”, calm life and I respect them for that!
      PS: going to check your blog right now! 🙂

  • Tom and Sheila

    Well said , Storyteller! The fear that motivated me was that events would probably change my options, not in a bad way, but I knew that marriage, kids, the burbs…have a way of changing our priorities, so I moved and started traveling solo at 20. Took an ESL teaching job in China, later took a job where I could travel, then did the local career thing with vacations as often as possible. Now, a FEW years later my husband and I travel almost as much as we’re home. 🙂

    Glad you listened to Miss Fear! Sheila

    • Thank you so much for sharing your experience, Sheila! Teaching English is one of my ideas right now, but I’m not native English, so it might be tricky..Anyhow, the world is a (huge) oyster and there are so many opportunities to explore and try, we don’t need to stay in a job for 40 years, do we?
      Glad you also listened to Miss Fear! happy life to you and your family ! x

  • Fear is so powerful: it can stop us but, as you explain here so well, can also push us to become who we really want to be and do what we really want to do. I went through a similar time, years ago and when I decided to face my fear, I latched on the lyrics of an Italian song – in English they translate roughly as: ‘I’m defenseless, but I chose to be free’. Best decision I ever made 🙂

    • You are so right! We usually under-evaluate the power of Fear. We run away from it, but it’s actually an excellent fuel for life. What is that song you are referring to? I’m Italian too! 🙂

    • I think it’s Elisa you were talking about! right? 🙂

  • I think we all need a kick in the butt from fear every now and then – it gets us moving! 🙂

    • haha! You are so right! 🙂 We should love our fears and do what we need to do! 🙂

  • Fear can be a good thing! It pushes you out of your comfort zone. Great post!

  • Beautifully written, although I would describe it more as love for what you’re getting now than fear of not having gotten it otherwise. The world is a beautiful place, enjoy!

    • Not sure I would describe it that way. The feeling I had in my stomach, the hysterical tears and the closed fists were my usual sign of deep and uncontrollable FOMO. Then now, 6 months later, I can tell I love what I am doing, but back then, no I didn’t. Thanks for sharing! 🙂

  • Great post ! I admire your courage !

    • Thank you so much Francesca! PS: I don’t consider myself a courageous person…don’t tell anyone! 😉

  • I share your fear! You’ve made the decision that we’re still afraid to make, congrats!

  • Malaika Fernandes

    You have courage, thank you for this post. I love my work and have been a workaholic for too long just about started travelling a little at a time but i am yet to do a solo trip

    • Hi Malaika,
      I was updating this post and only found your comment now. I hope your travelling is going very well and I hope one day you will find the courage to travel by yourself too. It is the best, nothing compares to it.